The Bright Future

I finally have come to the conclusion that my future is so bright it's blinding! 

I have so many ideas running through this brain of mine and most of the time I have no idea what to do with them, probably because I think too much, at least that's what I've been told. But most of my family and friends tell me I should never want for money because of all the ideas and talents I have...I don't see what they see but I'm trying. 

I have been so depressed over these past few years, just living in a funk. It's been over legitimate things happening all at once but I can feel and know that I'm coming out of it. And yesterday, I was on my way home, traveling west. The sun was setting and so bright I couldn't see. And I kept thinking this is so beautiful but I cant see to drive, so I took the picture above and pulled over to the side. The beauty in that bright sun made me marvel in the AWE of GOD! He is so Magnificent and Excellence is His name in all the earth!!!

I wake up this morning and looked at that picture and the voice within me said "This picture is a representation of your future. It's so bright it's going to be blinding!" What a revelation! I am so excited about what is to come for me and my children. I look forward to every second it comes to pass!

Me, My Blog and the FUTURE!!!

This will really be a bunch of ramble mumble jumbo but as many of you know I write from my heart at times. Today is one of those times...

As an artist of all sorts of mediums...jewelry, sewing, literary and others I am yet to discover, I have figured out what my really passion is and things I want to pursue in life.

First and foremost my baby girl, Olivia, is doing exceptionally well. All the glory goes to GOD. If it had not been for him she would not be 2 months 3 weeks (today) and 3lbs. So, thank you Jesus!

My daughter has taught me to live life to the fullest and that means for me to start setting my goals from aspirations that I've had in life. So, I will be posting more often on the blog and doing more artistic things. I'm going to do more submissions to publications and hopefully get my own book published one day. I'm also going to start making dresses for little girls...newborn to toddler starting out! I have the most beautiful model there is Miss Olivia! And I'm going to start making my own beads (and I'm not sure where that adventure is going to take me). Most of all I'm going to do a lot of traveling. I got places I wanna see and where I wanna be...

First, I'm going to start with finding my own design voice especially when it comes to jewelry making. I get so wrapped up in other people and their pieces that I forget how good I actually am. I have to stop being afraid of being Serena at her best. I have found that my best moves mountains. I'm not the only one who can move mountains...you can too!

Me and my quotes...here is a good one!

"A creative man is motivated by the desire to achieve, not by the desire to beat others." ~ Ayn Rand
Live life to the fullest and don't be afraid of being YOU at your best!

Bed rest...not EASY!!!

Bed rest is not an easy task; I don’t care what anybody says…it isn’t!

It’s Monday morning, you just had a wonderful weekend and getting to work on time is currently the top priority. But yet in still you roll over, smack the hell out of your alarm and think if only I could stay in bed all day! Personally, I don’t think I’ll have that thought for a while after this ordeal is over.

I’ve been here in the bed at the hospital (no less) for 1 week and 6 days (tomorrow will be two weeks), trying my best to stay pregnant. I was only 20 weeks pregnant when emitted and the doctors deem to think I’ve beat the odds compared to the condition of my cervix, contractions and dilation. I was scared out of mind that I would lose my baby.

All I know is I was so excited when I woke up on April 27th for my 9:30am appt., it was the day I would find out what I was having. So at one moment I was being told it was a girl and at the next that my cervix was nearly gone. Huh, what?! When did my cervix disappear and why wasn't it detected when I carried my son. Duh, I know but I was so confused and wasn’t thinking about labor and contractions or that maybe I would be giving birth to a fetus that would not be viable to survive.

I was emitted to the hospital and told after about 3 hours of being on the monitor that I had been having contractions (mind you I don’t feel the pains) and I’m staying indefinitely. I’m now not only confused but horrified. I’m still not understanding to this point how really serious my condition is until the next day when a doctor who is on staff with my doctor tells me to not hope for the best. She pissed me off but made me pray even harder. She even had the nerve to tell me a week later (May 6th, last Thursday) that she was surprised that I was still here in the hospital. Guess what she is going to be surprised that I’ll be here this week and the weeks to come because I’m not letting go! I’m a fighter and if how my daughter is moving around is any indication of her personality, she is a fighter as well.

I’ve had good and bad days, mostly good! Though I finally got my beads Thursday, I haven’t been able to bring myself to make anything. I shuffled through and organized beads but not able to put anything together. Hopefully, in a day or two I’ll be making something!

The 21-day consciousness cleanse

I decided on Monday to finally do this cleanse after 4 months of toting the book around in my bag. I basically was not mentally ready for this journey. I've been going through some things and though I thought I was ready to let it go, I really wasn't. As psychotic as this may sound...I was enjoying the HURT! It felt bad but I believe I was finding some sort of joy in the pain. Now, I am truly ready and done with being joyous in sorrow...DONE!

But like I said, I decided to do this Monday. I was so anxious that I was going to do it that night but something told me to just wait til the morning to dive in and dive I did. I started Day 1: The Gift of Desire but I did not finish. I did not complete the all of the exercises, so I was going to stay on day 1 but something once again said no proceed to Day 2: The Gift of Self-awareness (baby let me tell you it been all of 4 hours) and already I feel a huge weight off the shoulders...so much lighter! But I'll discuss that tomorrow.

See, I plan to document my 21 day journey and hopeful in me telling some of this, it'll help someone decide to take this journey themselves because already I'm happier for today's self awareness. So, in the morning hopefully (if I stick to the schedule) I can report how and what the previous day brought forth. I will not get very detailed but enough for you to get my point.

DAY 1: THE GIFT OF DESIRE

I was not very focus but with the little bit of exercises I did do...I discovered what I most desire at this point in my life! Trust me, those that I desire most isn't what I thought at all, other things were the precedent. Unfortunately, due to the fact that I did not complete the first day I really don't have any thing else to say other than...I'm going to love this journey.

5 Things about ME. . .

1) I'm addict to creating things; stories, poetry, jewelry, clothing, quilts, etc ... anything pretty much!

2) I am the eldest of 5 children.

3) Pink is NOT my favorite color! Despite the name of my company. (go figure)

4) My favorite board game is MONOPOLY!!!

5) I love to stay up late...not a morning person at all!

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OH... Tagging 7, yes seven people hummm, wonder who will it be!!!


I tagged...
Tiina Teaspoon, Jewelry by Tara, Welcome to Girl Land, My Little Cuddle Bugs, Sweet Irie Originals, Caties Blue, Purse-onality.

Visit these blogs and their shops for all the beautiful handmade items...all by these great artists.

::: Thanks to Sue of Signature Sterling for getting this tag thing rolling...